I’m a type-A, high achiever. I am intelligent and disciplined. I work hard at tasks given and make things happen. And I want to let my (inner) bad-girl out!
I play by the rules. I do what is expected. I was (am) the good girl – the honor-roll student, the responsible daughter, the met-expectations employee, the one who gets things done, without reminders. And I’m tired of it!
I never rebelled. I never broke curfew; never snuck out after lights out. I listened to my parents, took advanced academic classes, and did all my homework, on time. I didn’t do drugs, didn’t smoke, didn’t have a different boyfriend every week. And college continued the same patterns. I didn’t party, studied (a lot), and graduated with honors and a great job offer. Oh, did I mention, I was (am) a good girl.
To this day, I don’t smoke, don’t drink excessively, don’t use expletives (hardly anyway), don’t dress provocatively, have no tattoos and just one ear piercing. I am a responsible adult, a loyal friend, a loving wife. I am polite to strangers, pay my taxes, and abide by the law (most laws anyway; really, who drives the speed limit on the highway?).
And I want to let my bad girl out! I want to break some rules. Not enough to get in real trouble, but enough to experience that sense of (teenage) rebellion.
Why do I want to do this? Is it because I never did it when I was a teenager? Is there something deep in my psyche that is just missing a check box? Is it important to know the why or just focus on the how??
So how do you rebel at 50+? Without ending up in jail or the hospital or divorce court?
I saw a list of things that might help me feel a bit like the bad girl, in a safe way (because even though I want to let the bad girl out, I do have a deep-seated value of safety – go figure!): Wear sexy shoes and sexy underwear. Ride a motorcycle. Get a tattoo and a trendy haircut/color. Wear tight black leather, form fitting clothes, and winged eyeliner. Not a graying pony tail, sneakers and old-lady jeans. Oh, and red lipstick – red lipstick was a must.
Who’s ready for a mall trip?!? Sephora and Victoria Secret, here I come. Can I learn to create tousled hair and a made-up face every morning? Can I learn to be comfortable in sexy shoes, tight clothes, red lips?
Does being comfortable go with being a bad girl??
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